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[Jun. 20th, 2006|07:27 pm] |
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Oh my gosh...an update! :-O
1. Bold what is true about you
2. Italicize CAPITALIZE WHAT YOU WISH WERE TRUE.
3. Add something true about you to the end of the list
4. Tag five friends
* I miss somebody right now.
* I don't watch much TV these days.
* I own lots of books.
* I wear glasses or contact lenses.
* I love to play video games.
* I've tried marijuana.
* I've watched porn movies.
* I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
* I believe honesty is usually always the best policy.
* I curse sometimes. As opposed to constantly.
* I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
* I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
* I have broken someone's bones.
* I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
* I hate the rain.
* I'm paranoid at times.
* I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
* I need/want money right now.
* I LOVE SUSHI.
* I talk really, really fast. Sometimes.
* I HAVE FRESH BREATH IN THE MORNING.
* I have long hair.
* I have lost money in Las Vegas.
* I have at least one sibling.
* I was born in a country outside of the U.S. (well, as long as it was a nice country)
* I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
* I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
* I LIKE THE WAY I LOOK
* I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
* I am usually pessimistic.
* I have a lot of mood swings.
* I think prostitution should be legalized. as long as they are required to get tested or something
* I slept with a roommate.
* I have a hidden talent.
* I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. (Generally)
* I have a lot of friends.
* I have pecked someone of the same sex.
* I enjoy talking on the phone.
* I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
* I love to shop and/or window shop.
* I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
* I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
* I have a cell phone.
* I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
* I've rejected someone before.
* I currently like/love someone.
* I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
* I want to have children in the future.
* I have changed a diaper before.
* I've called the cops on a friend before.
* I'M NOT ALLERGIC TO ANYTHING.
* I have a lot to learn.
* I am shy around the opposite sex. (sometimes)
* I'm on line 24/7, even as an away messge.
* I have at least 5 away messages saved.
* I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
* I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
* I own the "South Park" movie.
* I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
* I enjoy some country music.
* I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
* I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
* Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
* I have dated a close friend's ex.
* I AM HAPPY AT THIS MOMENT.
* I'm obsessed with guys.
* Democrat.
* Republican.
* I am punk rockish.
* I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
* I STUDY FOR TESTS MOST OF THE TIME.
* I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
* I CAN WORK ON MY CAR.
* I LOVE MY JOB.
* I am comfortable with who I am right now.
* I have more than just my ears pierced.
* I walk barefoot wherever I can.
* I have jumped off a bridge.
* I love sea turtles.
* I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
* I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
* I am proficient on a musical instrument.
* I hate office jobs.
* I went to college out of state.
* I am adopted.
* I am a pyro.
* I have thrown up from crying too much.
* I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
* I fall for the worst people.
* I adore bright colors.
* I usually like covers better than originals.
* I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
* I can pick up things with my toes.
* I can't whistle.
* I have ridden/owned a horse.
* I still have every journal I've ever written in.
* I talk in my sleep. or so I"m told....
* I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
* I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
* I wear a toe ring.
* I have a tattoo.
* I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with. *snort* just one?
* I am a caffeine junkie.
* I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
* If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
* I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
* I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
* I'm an artist.
* I am ambidextrous.
* I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.
* If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.
* I have terrible teeth.
* I hate my toes.
* I did this Meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.
* I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
* I have lived in either three different states or countries.
* I AM EXTREMELY FLEXIBLE.
* I love hugs more than kisses.
* I want to own my own business.
* I smoke.
* I spend way too much time on the computer..
* Nobody has ever said I'm normal. .
* Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.
* I am proficient in the use of many types firearms and combat weapons.
* I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.
* I don't like it when people are not pleased or seem not pleased with me.
* I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
* I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.
* I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
* I can't stand being alone.
* I have at least one obsession at any given time.
* I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
* I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.
* I'm a judgemental asshole
* I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
* I HAVE TRAVELED MORE THAN ONE CONTINENT.
* I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.
* I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am. (sometimes)
* I am a Libertarian.
* I can speak more than one language.
* I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
* I would rather read than watch TV.
* I like reading fact more than fiction.
* I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
* I have no piercings.
* I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.
* I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
* I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.
* I've been married and am now divorced.
* There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.
* I like most animals better than most people.
* I own a collection of retro games consoles.
* The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.
* I have hit someone with a dead fish.
* I have written/read erotic stories.
* I am compulsively honest.
* I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.
* I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
* I have gone from wishing I was a boy to revelling in being a girl to feeling like a boy again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.
* I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.
* I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
* I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.
* I dislike milk.
* I obsessively wash my hands.
* I always carry something significant around with me.
* Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.
* I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
* Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.
* I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document. - semagic rocks
* I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
* I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.
* Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed. (sometimes)
* I am a virgin.
* I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
* I do not 'get' most comedy acts.
* I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.
* I don't like to chew gum. (grew out of that one actually
* I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.
* I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.
* Had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
* I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.
* I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.
* I love to sing. (which is different from I can sing, mind you. lol)
* I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.
* I have a custom-built computer.
* I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
* I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.
* I've gone skinny-dipping.
* I've performed in three plays, all of them Shakespeare.
* I enjoy burritos.
* I'm Irish and lovin' it.
* I have a thing for redheads.
* I am a twin!
* Most times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.
* Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
* I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.
* I wish I could do high school all over again
* I wish I could change how my heart feels sometimes.
* I wish I was personally financially secure and didn't have to depend on my parents.
* I want to be smarter
* I constantly daydream stories about my friends and I want to write them down to get them published. (well, not necessarily about my friends, hardly ever about my friends really, but the rest is true)
* I need chocolate and orgasm
* My dreams are more real than real life.
* Some experiences of my life are so surreal, I'm unsure as to whether I really just dreamed them or not.
* I can be surrounded by people and yet feel completely alone, though I can be completely alone and know that I'm not.
* I've had a streak of white hair pretty much since I had hair.
* I've a weird sense of humour.
* I probably enjoy gay porn far too much.
* I spend way too much money on designer handbags. |
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| Becky begged me... |
[Dec. 14th, 2005|10:10 pm] |
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HOW MANY WAYS HAVE YOU KISSED? POST AND PASS IT ON!
[x] On the cheek
[x] On the lips
[x] On their hands or fingers
[x] In my room
[x] In their room
[x] Of the opposite sex (many, many boys to be kissed, but still haven't found my forever kissmate)
[x] Same sex (A kiss between girlfriends always gets the boys droolin')
[x] In a different state
[ ] A little younger than me (Nope, I like 'em a bit older...)
[x] A little older than me
[x] With black hair
[ ] With curly hair
[x] Blonde hair and blue eyes (aww, my first boyfriend in Jr. High! Chill, it was a kiss on the cheek!)
[ ] With red hair
[x] With straight hair
[ ] Shorter than me
[ ] With a lip ring
[x] Who I truly love
[x] Who was drunk (Or was really, really tipsy...)
[ ] Who was high (I don't date boys who do drugs.)
[x] In the morning
[x] Right after waking up (Make sure to have a sip of water first...)
[x] Just before bed
[x] Late at night (So passionate!)
[X] Who I had just met
[x] Who I really didn't want to kiss (Sometimes you just feel bad for the guy and can't say no...)
[ ] While I was going out with some else (F no! I don't believe in cheating.)
[x] On a bed (RWOAR.)
[ ] In a graveyard
[x] At school (And much more...)
[x] Against a wall (RWOAR.)
[x] At a dance (Hmm, how about a club instead?)
[x] At a show
[ ] At the beach
[ ] In a pool
[x] Who was/is a good friend (First major kiss...gross!)
[ ] In the rain (No :( F all my ex's.)
[ ] With an STD (Sick people!)
[x] In a car/taxi/bus
[x] At a party
[ ] On a plane
[x] In a bathroom
[x] In the dark
[ ] On a roof top
[ ] Under water
[ ] With a tongue ring (Nope, I'm a classy girl, I like my men unpierced.)
[x] While driving (Given and received...)
[ ] Who was dating a friend (No cheating!)
[ ] A stranger
[ ] More than one person at once
[x] Goodbye forever (I don't believe in forever goodbye's, people cross our paths more than once in a lifetime, and me filling this out proves it.)
[x] When I was drunk (How about making kissy noises over the phone while drunk? And then another time when I was beyond tipsy and was actually kissing...)
[ ] Who didn't speak english (No, but I was asked if a Moroccan could kiss me.)
[ ] In a firetruck
[x] On a playground (Chad Wise, 2nd grade hottie.)
[x] On a bench
[ ] In a hot tub (Dang, none of the boys I have kissed had hot tubs.)
[ ] In the ocean (There are sharks in the ocean!)
[x] On the floor
[x] On a table
[x] In the shower (And more...)
[ ] On a trampoline
[ ] In the tubes atMcDonald's/BK? (HAHA, they still have those?)
[ ] On a cruise
[x] In the snow (And they warm you up too!)
[x] Under the stars
[ ] On a ski lift
[ ] In an elevator
[ ] While chewing gum
[x] On a chair
[x] Half-naked
[ ] Under a waterfall
[ ] In a hot air balloon
[ ] In the woods
[x] On the ear
[x] On the neck (No hickies, please. I prefer a more creative locale for a love bite.)
[x] Upsidedown
[x] At a red light
[x] On a staircase
[ ] Under a staircase
[x] While your sleeping (Given and received)
[ ] On a rock jetti (What is this?)
[x] At a bowling alley
Dang, I need to fulfill a lot more kisses. Any takers??? LOL. |
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| Naughty or Nice? |
[Dec. 7th, 2005|01:10 pm] |
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 Dear Santa...
Dear Santa,
This year I've been busy!
Last Thursday I gave ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) aroreiel a life-saving blood transfusion (50 points). Last Wednesday I bought porn for aryanaorion (-10 points). In July I helped sammie323 hide a body (-173 points). In February I pulled over and changed a_lady's flat tire (15 points). In September I caught a purse-snatcher who stole whitedaisy82's purse (30 points).
Overall, I've been naughty (-88 points). For Christmas I deserve a spanking!
Sincerely,
eternalluv |
So I've been naughty, huh? I'd appreciate that spanking be delivered by a particular British man...
Dang, I haven't updated my LJ in forever. That shall be my New Years resolution. NOT! |
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| Things To Avoid Doing During LOTR/ The Return of the King |
[May. 9th, 2005|02:12 pm] |
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Thanks to Jo for sending me the link to this one and having a good laugh with me before I skeedaddle off to work...
http://www.dailykos.com/story/2005/5/7/203629/3183
Things To Avoid Doing During LOTR/ The Return of the King
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- Stand up halfway through the movie and yell loudly, "Wait... where the hell is Harry Potter?"
- Block the entrance to the theater while screaming: "YOU SHALL NOT PASS!" - After the movie, say "Lucas could have done it better."
- Play a drinking game where you have to take a sip every time someone says: "The Ring."
- Point and laugh whenever someone dies.
- Ask everyone around you if they think Gandalf went to Hogwarts.
- Finish off every one of Elrond's lines with "Mr. Anderson."
- When Aragorn is crowned king, stand up and at the top of your lungs sing, "And I did it....MY way...!"
- Talk like Gollum all through the movie. At the end, bite off someone's finger and fall down the stairs.
- Dress up as old ladies and reenact "The Battle of Helms Deep" Monty Python style.
- When Denethor lights the fire, shout "Barbecue!"
- In TTT when the Ents decide to march to war, stand up and shout "RUN FOREST, RUN!"
- Every time someone kills an Orc, yell: "That's what I'm Tolkien about!" See how long it takes before you get kicked out of the theatre.
- During a wide shot of a battle, inquire, "Where's Waldo?"
- Talk loudly about how you heard that there is a single frame of a nude Elf hidden somewhere in the movie.
- Start an Orc sing-a-long.
- Come to the premiere dressed as Frankenfurter and wander around looking terribly confused.
- When they go in the paths of the dead, wait for tense moment and shout, "I see dead people!"
- Imitate what you think a conversation between Gollum, Jar-jar, Dobby and Yoda would be like.
- Release a jar of daddy-long-legs into the theater during the Shelob scene.
- Wonder out loud if Aragorn is going to run for governor of California.
- When Shelob comes on, exclaim, "Man! Charlotte's really let herself go!"
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| Home :) |
[Dec. 18th, 2004|10:24 pm] |
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Home :) That's all I have to say about that. Wiped out from packing and trying to figure out where all of my stuff is going to go is mentally draining. Time for Spring, erm, Winter Cleaning! Love to all my friends. Hopefully I will talk to everyone in the next couple days. Mwah!
P.S. <3 I am smitten with Orlando Bloom <3
Off to watch ROTK EE w/mom, and dad, who will probably fall asleep (not cool!). |
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| No More School! |
[Dec. 15th, 2004|09:52 am] |
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| | Dancing Queen-ABBA | ] |
Yay! to being done with school for the semester!!! *does happy jig* For the next 4 weeks I shall do nothing but sit on my arse and write (ok, I will be cooking dinner and starting a workout schedule and cleaning, but that's it!). I hope a certain Brit is also doing the same during his break. He deserves it. *wub* So, in honour of both of us being on break, here is a little photo of Orlando doing something I hope he has time to do while on break.
Also, CONGRATS to my dear friend Cat for her promotion at work! She is now head consultant for all Orlando merchandise. Woohoo! |
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| Camel Jockey |
[Nov. 17th, 2004|10:46 am] |
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| | Life Is A Highway~Tom Cochran | ] |
Do you SEE what I SEE? How adorable is this man? *gushes* Me wants him...
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[Nov. 15th, 2004|03:18 pm] |
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SECTION 1: ABOUT YOURSELF
Name: Aimee
Gender: female
Age: 22
Location: USA
Birthday: February 21st
School: University of Tampa
Ethnicity: Caucasion, lol, well, that's the little dot they make you fill in on scantrons!
Shoe size: 7ish
Natural Hair color: Medium Brown
Eye color: Green, like a cat's eyes.
Fears: Spiders *shivers*
SECTION 2: HAVE YOU EVER...
Cheated on someone?: No way Jose!
Fallen off the bed?: Yes...ouch!
Fallen for a relative?: Eww!
Broke someone's heart?: Yes.
Had your heart broken?: *sad face*
Done something you regret? Sadly, yes.
Cheated on a test? Heh, who hasn't? *blushes*
SECTION 3: CURRENTLY...
Wearing?: Jeans and a tshirt.
Listening to?: "Love Song" by 311
Eating?: Pringles...they're my love.
Feeling?: Stressed with schoolwork.
Located?: My arse is permanently molded to this desk chair.
Chatting with?: Jo, Evi, and Amber, Cat went to go take care of the girls.
Watching?: Nada.
Should REALLY be doing?: Homework...my brain is too fried to think right now.
SECTION 4: DO YOU...
Brush your teeth?: I'm neurotic about my pearly whites.
Like anybody?: Yes. *pouts*
Have any piercings?: My ears.
Drive?: Hardly ever. Didn't I already say my arse is permantently molded to this chair?
Believe in Santa Claus?: He is da man! Except for the pretty of course.
Smoke?: Blech! Do I intentionally want to have black lungs? No way Jose!
Drink?: Water is my love. Haven't had an alcoholic beverage since Rach graduated
Have a cell phone?: Yes.
Have a pager?: Nope.
SECTION 5: FRIENDS...
Who is your best? I love all my friends the same, they each hold a special place in my heart that can't ever be replaced.
Who is the shyest?: Evi. I love ya girl!
Who is the craziest?: Cat, lol, that's why she is my late night date!
Who is the most talkative?: Cat.
Who is the cutest?: Mike...he is like unattainable to me.
Who laughs the most?: Cat, she is always busting a gut.
Who have you known the shortest?: Cat.
Who do you miss the most?: Melissa, going for a movie and ice cream isn't the same. In fact, I don't think I have done those two activities together since I moved away from Chicago. :(
Who do you turn to for personal problems?: Melissa, she is my therapist.
Do you hang out with the opposite sex?: I'm too shy too.
Do you trust your friends?: Way more than I trust men.
SECTION 6: THE LAST PERSON YOU...
Hugged?: Erm, my mom last night when I left to come back to school. I don't get hugs as much as I would like.
Kissed?: Hah! Josh, almost a year ago to the day.
Talked to on the phone?: Katie last night.
Ate with?: Parents...I miss home cooked meals.
Slept With?: Myself! I haven't ever spent the night with a boy...
SECTION 7: PERSONAL...
What do you want to be when you grow up?: Published Author
What has been the best day of your life?: Still waiting for it to happen...
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush?: Erm, the pretty is my crush.
What do you usually think about before you go to bed?: Lately...school crap.
Did you lose someone you really loved?: Too many times.
How many times have you fallen deeply in love?: Once...
Love your family?: They are my support system.
Love your friends?: Ditto.
SECTION 8: FAVORITE...
Movie: Too many to pick from. Anything with Orlando, or any romantic comedy.
Relative: My Auntie Karen, she always helps me sort through my messes.
Fruit: Nectarines...juicy!
Car: Well, that changes yearly almost, but I love Mini Coopers! I could totally own the road like Charlize did in "The Italian Job", you know I could!
Class: Ficion Writing as of this semester. I love my Prof, she is so encouraging and has such a love for writing.
Holiday: Thanksgiving! Honestly, I just love being reminded of what I have to be thankful for.
Day of the Week: Any day that I don't have to go to class.
Color: Pink it's my new obsession
Pink it's not even a question,
Pink on the lips of your lover, 'cause
Pink is the love you discover
(hehe, sorry, but I just love that song and the color!)
Favorite spot for a date: Anywhere with a relaxing, quiet atmosphere.
SECTION 9: DO YOU...
Like to walk in the rain?: Rain...sigh. I love it.
Prefer black or blue pens?: Blue. I have started to realize that black ink reminds me of being despressed.
Like to travel?: Yes! I can't wait to do more traveling someday, like to Europe and Austraila!
Think you're attractive?: Blech.
Have a goldfish?: I have a beta fish...Bloomie!
Ever have the falling dream?: Yes! Scared the shit out of me!
Have stuffed animals?: Yes. I sleep with one that looks like my doggy Muffin every night. She's my cuddle bunny.
SECTION 10: WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...
Abortion: Wrong.
Smoking: Blech! I need to have a talk with a certain brit about that.
Eating Disorders: No comment.
SECTION 11: THIS OR THAT...
Pierced nose or tongue?: Nose, its cute!
Single or taken?: Taken...
MTV or BET?: Used to be MTV back in high school, now it's neither.
7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek?: I used to live for the drama of Dawson.
Sugar or salt?: Depends on which day you ask me.
Silver or gold?: Silver
Chocolate or flowers?: Chocolate covered Orlando...yummy!
Color or Black-and-white photos?: B&W
M&M's or Skittles?: M&M's!!! They melt in your mouth...not in your hand!
Stay up late or sleep in?: Stay up late!
Sun or moon?: The man in the moon.
Acquaintances or one best friend: How about a handful of close friends?
Spring or Fall?: Spring, when everything is blooming! hehe
Happy or sad?: Happy.
McDonald's or Burger King?: BK, although haven't had it in months.
Mexican or Italian food?: Yes, please.
Lights on or off?: Off, romantic.
Candy or soda?: Candy.
Pepsi or Coke?: Blech!
Current Music: "Crash" by DMB, making me sleepy. |
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| 25 Questions... |
[Oct. 28th, 2004|11:58 am] |
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| | Intuition-Jewel | ] |
25 Questions given to be by my friend Cat. Just do it! hehe
1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I loveable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. What's the coolest thing about me?
15. What do you think would be my most appealing trait to the opposite sex?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?
21. Am I attractive? Why or why not?
22. If you were going to take me somewhere, where would it be?
23. Is there a song that makes you think of me?
24. What is something I could not live without?
25. If I was stuck on a island, what three things would you pack for me? |
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| First post |
[Oct. 19th, 2004|08:05 pm] |
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| | "Like A Prayer" by Madonna | ] |
Well, Jo encouraged me to finally post something, anything. I decided to post one of the short stories I wrote that I actually like the way it turned out. It is still in the final draft, so if anyone has any suggestions let me know! So, without further ado...what I have been doing this semster:
Delicate
It was absolutely the last time I was going to try to reason with her. Her excuses were getting old, repetitive, and I couldn’t hear one more. Her soft voice, eyes downcast, and the fidgeting of her hands as she mulled over a reason more justified than the last she had given me.
I felt the warm breath escape her mouth and tickle the hairs at the base of my neck. Her arms wrapped around my midsection, her clothed chest pressed against my naked back, and the softness of her hands while they caressed my stomach sparked the desire I had for her. She always let this side of her come out when I brought it up.
After all this time she still affected me so easily and doesn’t even realize it. The torturous ways she touched me, kissed me, and looked at me was the complete undoing of my strength. Just the feel of her small hand encompassed by my own was enough to make me feel safe. The way her delicate lips first pressed to mine in the early hours of the morning made me feel more needed, like with that small gesture she let me know how she couldn’t imagine waking up another morning without me by her side. And that first time she looked at me I knew she was innocent, just like a candy that had never been unwrapped.
It was Aunt Betty who had introduced us. I was fresh out of medical school, and had been on the late shift in the emergency room when she was brought in. She had fallen on a slippery patch of ice and broke her arm. A neighbor had driven her, as she hadn’t ever learned how to drive, and while I overheard the conversation with the niece over the phone that was to pick her up I couldn’t help but smile when Aunt Betty sweetly whispered "it’s no rush dear, but it will be wonderful to see you twice in one day." I could tell from that one statement that the two were very close, like a mother and daughter, and I sat with Aunt Betty while she waited for her ride.
If I told you it was love at first sight I would be lying through my teeth. She was plain, wore very little makeup, and waltzed into the ER with her hair in a ponytail and wearing overalls with a sweater underneath. I can’t believe I remember the way she looked and I hadn’t even taken an interest in her yet. I said goodnight to Aunt Betty, and rushed off as I was paged for another emergency.
It was the next evening, when things were a bit slow, and I was taking a nap in the lounge when I was paged that I had a visitor "Dr. Kaplan to the admissions desk." That was when I knew. She had come to thank me for taking such good care of Aunt Betty. And when she broke down into tears, I wrapped her in my arms as she told me of the only living relative she had left and how much they needed each other. From that moment on I spent every waking hour with them. It was Aunt Betty who had whispered to me over our softening ice cream as we waited for the Saturday night movie to begin "I can see it in your eyes, tell her, you both feel the same way." It was not even a year later that we were married and awaiting the birth of our son.
"You need to come to the realization that she will not be here much longer." Please let this be the time she doesn’t hide from the situation. She doesn’t understand how much she is missing out on by not visiting her. I sighed heavily out of frustration. It was like banging my head against a brick wall sometimes, the way she refused to acknowledge it as being reality.
I felt her lips press lightly against my shoulder blades, her hands made a slow ascent up to my chest, her fingers tentative, as if she was feeling my skin for the very first time again. She knew exactly what she was doing, if she seduced me in just the right way I would drop the subject and she would be free of the task. But I wasn’t going to back down, not this time.
My eyes tightened at the sensations she was inducing and were now coursing through my veins. I had to stay strong, so I tried to think of something uninteresting, hideous, revolting. When the lawyer gets eaten in "Jurassic Park"? No, that was too funny. The endless hours of "Spongebob" I have had to endure watching? No, as much as that show annoyed me, it was still too cute to distract me, because she loved that show as much as Jimmy did. I’ve got it! The moment the extraterrestrial bursts from the man’s stomach in "Alien"!
"Baby please?" I softened the tone of my voice, turned around giving her my best puppy eyes, and planted little delicate kisses on the corners of her mouth. "She needs you right now, more than ever, and I know how hard it is, how much you want to believe she will come sashaying through that door with her sing-song voice and smile that could light up the world, but this is happening. This is important to her."
She closed her eyes and rested her forehead against my chest. "Let’s go upstairs..."
"No! Not this time Sarah. You need to stop avoiding the subject and listen to what I am saying! Aunt Betty is dying! She has only weeks, possibly days, and you have been taking advantage of the time you have left together. You should be spending as much time by her side, listening to her stories, laughing together over jokes only the two of you find hilarious, and telling her how much she has meant to your life! Baby, I don’t want you to regret not being able to have this time with her the way I did with my mother. She needs this as much as you do."
She was silent, but I knew that I had broken through to her when her bottom lip began to tremble and the tears broke free. She began shaking and I caught her just before she was about to collapse to the floor. We sat there, for endless minutes, as I caressed her back and smoothed her hair from her face as she sat in my lap clutching on to me for strength.
After she had quieted down and let a weighted sigh release from her body, she stood up. "I’m just going to freshen up, then can you drive me there, I don’t think I..."
"I’ll go start the car, let it warm up a bit from the cold." I kissed her on the cheek, telling her with more than words how proud I was of her.
The drive to the hospital was silent, I held her hand with the opposite one I was using to steer the car, and she silently looped her fingers in mine and gave a little squeeze, thanking me for not giving up on her. I watched her walk toward the entrance with a slight sadness and apprehension in her step. I could picture the way they would sit in bed together, Sarah crying for not coming to spend time with her sooner, Aunt Betty hugging her body close while whispering words of comfort, and finally telling jokes together. Aunt Betty always told the best jokes, especially the off-color ones.
As I watched the cold snow begin to fall on the warm pavement of the parking lot and the white puffs as I exhaled, I realized that tonight there would no longer be the slight tension at home. I would not have to worry about tiptoeing around the subject and even though things would not be the same, I knew we would be okay, because we would always remember.
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